第十六章: 灰尘 Dust | 外婆的道歉信
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Elsa pulls the Gryffindor scarf tighter around her face, pushes her hands into her pockets, and leads them through the snow. The wurse is so delighted about escaping the bus that it skips in circles around Elsa and The Monster like an overexcited puppy. The Monster looks disgusted. He doesn't seem used to being outdoors by daylight, Elsa notices. Maybe it's because Wolfheart is used to living in the dark forests outside Miamas where the daylight doesn't dare penetrate. At least, that is where he lives in Granny's fairy tales, so if there is any sort of order to this story, this must surely be the logical explanation.
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It turns into an epic adventure. A monstrous fairy tale.
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Elsa decides they should begin by taking the bus, like normal knights on normal quests in more or less normal fairy tales when there aren't any horses or cloud animals available. But when all the other people at the bus stop start eyeing The Monster and the wurse and nervously shuffling as far away from them as it's possible to be without ending up at the next bus stop, she realizes it's not going to be quite so straightforward.
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On boarding the bus it becomes immediately clear that wurses are not all that partial to traveling by public transport. After it has snuffled about and stepped on people's toes and overturned bags with its tail and accidentally dribbled a bit on a seat a little too close to The Monster for The Monster to feel entirely comfortable, Elsa decides to forget the whole thing, and then all three of them get off. Exactly one stop later.
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第十六章: 灰尘 Dust | 外婆的道歉信
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People who see them on the pavement react as people generally do when they catch sight of a girl, a wurse, and a monster strolling along side by side: they cross the street. Some of them try to pretend that it has nothing to do with the fact that they are scared of monsters and wurses and girls, by demonstratively pretending to be having loud telephone conversations with someone who suddenly gives them different directions and tells them to go the opposite way. That is also what Elsa's dad does sometimes when he's gone the wrong way and he doesn't want strangers to realize he's one of those types who go the wrong way. Elsa's mum never has that problem, because if she goes the wrong way she just keeps going until whoever she was supposed to be meeting has to follow her. Granny used to solve the problem by shouting at the road signs. It varies, how people deal with it.
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But others who run into the adventuring trio are not as discreet, and they watch Elsa from the other side of the road as if she's being abducted. Elsa feels that The Monster would probably be good at many things, but a kidnapper who can be put out of action by sneezing at him would probably not be a particularly effective kidnapper. It's a curious sort of Achilles' heel for a superhero, she feels. Snot.
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第十六章: 灰尘 Dust | 外婆的道歉信
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It's almost lunchtime by the time they find the right address. Elsa's feet hurt and she's hungry and in a bad mood. She knows that a knight of Miamas would never whine or be afraid of a grand adventure when sent out on a treasure hunt, but whoever said a knight can't be hungry or ill-tempered?
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There's a high-rise at the address, but also a hamburger restaurant across the street. Elsa tells the wurse and The Monster to wait, and she goes across even though she has firm moral objections to hamburger chains, as every almost-eight-year-old should. But even almost-eight-year-olds can't eat their principles, so she grudgingly buys ice cream for the wurse, a hamburger for The Monster, and a veggie burger for herself. And as she leaves she sneaks out her red felt-tip pen and crosses out the dash between "Lunch" and "menu" on the sign outside.
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The walk takes more than two hours. Elsa wishes it were Halloween, because then they could take the bus without scaring normal people, everyone would just assume they were dressed up. That's why Elsa likes Halloween: on Halloween it's normal to be different.
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Despite the below-freezing temperature clawing at their faces, they sit on a bench opposite the high-rise building. Or rather, Elsa and the wurse sit, because The Monster looks at the bench as if it's also about to lick him. He refuses to even touch the greaseproof paper around his hamburger, so the wurse eats that as well. At one point the wurse drops a bit of ice cream on the bench and licks it up without concern, and The Monster looks close to asphyxiation. After the wurse takes a bite of Elsa's burger and she carries on eating it regardless, she has to help him breathe from a paper bag.
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When they're finally done, Elsa leans her head back and looks up the façade of the building. It must be fifteen floors high. She takes the envelope from her pocket, slides off the bench, and marches inside. The Monster and the wurse follow her in silence, surrounded by a strong smell of alcogel. Elsa quickly scans the board of residents on the wall and finds the name as written on the envelope, though preceded by the words "Reg. Psychotherapist." Elsa doesn't know what that means, but she's heard a good deal about terropists setting off bombs and causing all sorts of trouble, so a psychoterropist must be even worse.
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Elsa evaluates The Monster as they're going up. His beard sticks out of the hood like a large, curious squirrel, which makes him seem less and less dangerous the longer she knows him. The Monster clearly takes note of her examination of him, and he twists his hands uncomfortably. To her own surprise, Elsa realizes that his attitude hurts her feelings.
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She talks in normal language, because she refuses to speak in the secret language with him. Her jealousy about Granny's language not even being Granny's from the very beginning hasn't gone away.
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"If it bothers you so much you could just stay on guard downstairs with the wurse, you know. It's not like something's going to happen to me while I'm handing over a letter to the terropist."
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She heads over to the lift at the other end of the corridor. The wurse stops when they get there, and refuses to take another step. Elsa shrugs and goes in. The Monster follows her, after a certain amount of hesitation, though he is careful not to touch any of the walls.
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"Anyway, you don't have to be right beside me the whole time to be able to guard me," she says, sounding more resentful than she means to. She'd started thinking of The Monster as a friend, but remembers now that he's only here because Granny told him. The Monster just stands there in silence.
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When the elevator doors glide open Elsa marches out ahead of him. They pass rows of doors until they find the terropist's door. Elsa knocks so hard she actually hurts her knuckles. The Monster backs off towards the wall on the other side of the narrow corridor, as if he realizes that the person on the other side of the door may peer through the spyhole. He seems to be trying to make himself as small and unfrightening as possible. It's hard not to find this endearing, thinks Elsa -- even if "unfrightening" is not a proper word.
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Elsa knocks on the door again. Puts her ear against the lock. Another knock. Another silence.
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"Empty," says The Monster slowly.
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"They must be out for lunch, we'll have to wait," she says glumly, and drops despondently into one of the chairs.
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As far as Elsa is concerned, the silence goes from pleasant to hard work to unbearable in about one and a half eternities. And when she has occupied herself with everything she has been able to come up with -- drumming her fingers against the tabletop, poking out all the stuffing from the chair cushion through a little hole in the fabric, and carving her name into the soft wood of the armrest with the nail of her index finger -- she shatters the silence with one of those questions that sound much more accusing than she means it to be.
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"No shit, Sherlock." She really doesn't mean to be angry with him, because it's Granny she's angry with. She's just tired. So very, very tired. She looks around and catches sight of two wooden chairs.
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"Why do you wear soldier's trousers if you're not a soldier?"
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The Monster breathes slowly under his hood. "Old trousers."
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"Have you been a soldier?"
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"There's only one sort of soldier!"
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"Not that sort of soldier," The Monster intones.
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The hood moves up and down.
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She spits out the words. The hood doesn't move, but she can see him breathing. She's just about to repeat the question when she hears, from the inside of it: "Your granny. Showed. As a child." He says it the way he says everything in the normal language. As if the words come bickering out of his mouth.
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"Was it you who showed my granny Miamas, or was it Granny who showed you?"
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"War is wrong and soldiers are wrong. Soldiers kill people!"
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The Monster doesn't answer. Elsa carves a swearword into the wood of the armrest, using her nail. In actual fact she doesn't want to ask the question that's burning inside of her, because she doesn't want The Monster to know how wounded she is. But she can't stop herself. It's one of Elsa's big problems, they say at school. That she can never control herself.
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There's a long exhalation from the hood. "Lived in many places. Many homes."
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"A refugee camp. Did Granny bring you here with her? Was she the one who arranged it so you could live in the flat?"
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"Camp. Camp for the one who flees."
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The hood moves up and down.
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He nods.
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"Why did you become a soldier when you grew up? Was it so you could go to the same places as Granny?" He nods. "Did you also want to help people? Like she does?" Slowly, the hood moves up and down. "Why didn't you become a doctor like Granny, then?" The Monster rubs his hands together.
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The hood moves up and down.
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"Did you meet during a war? Is that why she called you Wolfheart?" She really doesn't want to ask anymore, because she can feel her jealousy growing. But the hood continues to nod.
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"Foster homes?"
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"Did she tell you fairy tales?" she asks quietly, and wishes he'd say no, even though she knows better.
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"Why didn't you stay there?"
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"You were about my age," Elsa says, thinking of the photos of the Werewolf Boy.
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The hood moves from side to side, very slowly. "Bad homes. Dangerous. Your granny came to get me."
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"Is Miamas a word in the secret language?" she asks instead. "I mean, is it a word in your language? It doesn't sound like other words in the secret language -- I mean, your language."
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The hood is still. The Monster is silent. But she notices that the beard withdraws even deeper into the darkness. Suddenly Elsa nods exuberantly to herself.
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"Blood. Don't like… blood."
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"Smart idea to become a soldier. Are you an orphan?"
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The hood doesn't move. But the words come more softly now. Not like all the other words from The Monster, which all seem to be on their guard. These sound almost dreamy.
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"Like the X-Men!" she exclaims with more enthusiasm than she's really willing to give away. Then she clears her throat, composes herself. "X-Men are… mutants. And many X-Men are sort of orphans. It's quite cool."
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The hood doesn't move. Elsa pulls out some more stuffing from the chair cushion and feels stupid. She was about to add that Harry Potter was also an orphan, and to be like Harry Potter in any way at all is actually the coolest thing there is, but she's starting to realize that The Monster probably doesn't read as much quality literature as one might hope.
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"What does Miamas mean, then?"
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Elsa pulls out the last bit of stuffing and rolls it into a ball to distract herself from her churning jealousy. Typical bloody Granny thing, making up Miamas for you so you'd know your mother loved you, she thinks, abruptly silencing herself when she realizes she is mumbling it aloud.
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The Monster shifts his weight from foot to foot. Breathing more slowly. Rubbing his hands.
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The words come out like a sigh. " 'I love.' "
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"Where did your mother come from?" asks Elsa.
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Elsa looks up and gazes intently into the darkness inside the hood.
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And then, while Elsa closes her eyes to avoid showing her agreement, he goes on tentatively: "In letter. Grandmother's apology. Was apology to mother," he whispers from under his hood.
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The hood moves from side to side.
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"Did you not have the same language?"
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"Other place. Other war."
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"Mama's language. 'Miamas.' My… mama's language."
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"So it was your kingdom. That was why it was called Miamas. It wasn't at all because I called pajamas 'mjamas.' "
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"Miamas. Not made up. Not pretend. Not for… a little one. Miamas. For real for… children."
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"You asked. About Granny's letter. What Granny wrote. Wrote apology to mother. We never found… mother."
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The speed of The Monster's hand-rubbing increases. His chest heaves. His hood moves down a fraction, then up again, infinitely slowly. And then everything is silent.
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"So that's why Granny was always going off on all these trips? Because you were looking for your mother?"
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"For how long?"
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Elsa's chin drops slightly.
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"Always. Since… the camp."
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Elsa's eyes open and she frowns. "What?"
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The hood moves up and down.
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The Monster's chest heaves up and down.
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Their eyes meet halfway, on different terms. A tiny but mutual respect is created between them, there and then, as Miamasians. Elsa realizes that he is telling her what was in the letter because he understands what it's like when people have secrets from you just because you're a child. So she sounds considerably less angry when she asks: "Did you look for your mother?"
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Elsa nods and looks down at her lap and, once again, her anger wells up unreasonably inside her. "My granny was also someone's mother! Did you ever think about that?"
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"Thanks," she whispers grumpily. But she says it in the secret language now.
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The Monster doesn't say anything, but when he rubs his hands together it's no longer as hard and frenetic.
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And that's the first time Elsa believes he's smiling. Or almost, anyway.
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He disappears back in under the hood. Elsa burrows her gaze into the floor and scrapes her heels against the wall-to-wall carpet, stirring up more dust.
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"You don't have to guard me!" Elsa snaps and starts scratching more swearwords into the wooden armrest.
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"No… but you do. All the time."
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Elsa doesn't know how long they wait, but they keep waiting long after Elsa has really decided to give up. They wait until the lift door opens with a little "pling" and the woman in the black skirt walks into the corridor. She approaches the office with big strides but freezes midair as she sees the enormous, bearded man and the small girl who looks as if she'd fit into the palm of one of his hands. The girl stares at her. The woman in the black skirt is holding a small plastic box of salad. It's trembling. She looks as if she's considering turning and running away, or maybe, like a child, believes that if she closes her eyes she'll no longer be visible. Instead, she stands frozen to the spot a few yards away from them, her hands grasping the edge of the box as if it were the edge of a cliff.
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"Touché." Elsa grins.
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"Not guard," The Monster finally growls. His black eyes emerge from under the hood. "Not guard. Friend."
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"You don't like talking so much, do you?"
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The Monster doesn't answer.
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"I think I have a letter for you," Elsa eventually manages to say.
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The woman stands still with her knuckles whitening around the plastic box. Elsa insistently reaches towards her with the envelope.
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Elsa rises from her chair. Wolfheart backs away from them both. If Elsa had been looking at him, she would have noticed, as he moved away, an expression on his face that she had never seen in him before. A sort of fear that no one in the Land-of-Almost-Awake would have believed Wolfheart capable of. But Elsa doesn't look at him as she rises from the chair; she is only looking at the woman in the black skirt.
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The woman takes it. Elsa puts her hands in her pockets, because she doesn't quite know what to do with them. It's unclear what the woman in the black skirt is doing here, but Elsa is certain that Granny had some reason for making her bring the letter. Because there's no coincidence in Miamas, or in fairy tales. Everything that's there is meant to be there.
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"It's from my granny. I think she's saying sorry about something."
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The woman's lips pinch inwards until they disappear.
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"I… I planned to change the name on the office door as well. But… well, I don't know. It never… never happened."
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Elsa is just about to correct her and point at Wolfheart and say, "Sent us here!" But when she looks up he's already gone. She didn't hear the elevator or the ground-floor door closing. He's just disappeared. "Like a fart through an open window," as Granny used to say when things weren't where they were supposed to be.
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"I… used to have this name, a long time ago. I changed back to my maiden name when I moved into your house, but this was my name when… when I met your grandmother."
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"Your grandmother writes 'sorry,' " she says slowly.
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"It's not your name on the envelope, I know that, but it has to be for you."
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The woman smells of mint today, not wine. Carefully she opens the letter. Her lips tighten; the letter trembles in her hands.
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"What does it say?" asks Elsa, regretting that she didn't have a quick peek before handing it over. The woman in the black skirt makes all the right movements to start crying, but seems to be out of tears.
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"After the wave," ventures Elsa.
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"For what?" Elsa asks at once.
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The letter starts trembling even more violently.
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"Because she sent you here."
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第十六章: 灰尘 Dust | 外婆的道歉信
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The woman with the black skirt moves towards the door, emblazoned with the words Reg. Psychotherapist, followed by the name she once had. She puts the key in the lock and gestures quickly for Elsa to come in, although it's quite obviously not what she wants at all.
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When she notices that Elsa's eyes are still searching for her large-hewn friend, the woman with the black skirt whispers morosely: "I had another office when your granny last came to see me with him. That's why he didn't know you were coming to me. He would never have come if he had known you were coming here. He is… is frightened of me."
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