"What else did Abby say that bothers you?" Carol asked, still looking straight before her, down her long legs in the navy-blue slacks.

Carol glanced at her. "You imagine," she said, and the pleasant vibration of her voice faded into silence again.

"Don't you want to sit in a more comfortable chair?"

Therese said nothing. She hadn't told Carol all the conversation at lunch, but she didn't want to talk about Abby any more.

"Bother me?"

"You're different with me tonight."

Carol seemed tired. She was worried about other things, Therese thought, more important things than this. "Nothing. Does it bother you, Carol?"

The page she had written last night, Therese thought, had nothing to do with this Carol, was not addressed to her. I feel I am in love with you, she had written, and it should be spring. I want the sun throbbing on my head like chords of music. I think of a sun like Beethoven, a wind like Debussy, and birdcalls like Stravinsky. But the tempo is all mine.

They had finished dinner a few moments ago, and then come up to this room that Therese had not seen before, a glass enclosed porch off the plain green room.

"The Pastimes of idle people," Carol said, stretching her legs out before her on the glider. "It's time Abby got herself a job again."

"No," Therese said. She was sitting on a leather stool near the glider.

"She didn't say. Just that one of the girls giving it was an actress."

"Whose party?"

"I don't know. She said uptown. She said you wouldn't be there, so I didn't particularly want to go."

"Where uptown?"

"All right," Therese said.

"That's not true. You're imagining again."

Carol set her lighter down with a click on the glass table, and Therese sensed her displeasure. "She did," Carol murmured, half to herself. "Sit over here, Therese."

"You mustn't think Abby feels that way about you. I know her well enough to know she wouldn't."

"I don't think Abby likes me," Therese remarked. "I don't think she wants me to see you."

Therese got up, and sat down at the very foot of the glider.

"But Abby's incredibly clumsy sometimes in the way she talks."

"I don't mean she said it." Therese tried to sound as calm as Carol. "She was very nice. She invited me to a cocktail party."

Therese wanted to forget the whole thing. Carol was still so distant even when she spoke, even when she looked at her. A bar of light from the green room lay across the top of Carol's head, but she could not see Carol's face now.

"The cream's in here, ma'am," she said, pointing to a pitcher that didn't match the demitasse set. Florence glanced at Therese with a friendly smile and round blank eyes. She was about fifty, with a bun at the back of her neck under the starched white band of her cap. Therese could not establish her somehow, could not determine her allegiance. Therese had heard her refer to Mr. Aird twice as if she were very devoted to him, and whether it was professional or genuine, Therese did not know.

Carol poked her with the back of her toe. "Hop up."

But Therese was slow to move, and Carol swung her feet over Therese's head and sat up. Then Therese heard the maid's step in the next room, and the plump, Irish-looking maid in the gray and white uniform came in bearing a coffee tray, shaking the porch floor with her quick, eager little steps that sounded so eager to please.

"Will there be anything else, ma'am?" Florence asked. "Shall I put out the lights?"

"No, I like the lights. We won't need anything else, thanks. Did Mrs. Riordan call?"

"Go in my room and get it, if you'd like it, Florence. I don't think I want to finish it."

"Yes, ma'am." Florence hesitated, "I was wondering if you were finished with that new book, ma'am. The one about the Alps."

"Not yet, ma'am."

"Yes," Carol said. "Why?"

Carol was motionless for a moment, and then she reached for a cigarette, a last one, and crumpled the pack up. "I was thinking, in fact, you might like to go with me. What do you think, for three weeks or so?"

"Thank you, ma'am. Good night, ma'am. Good night, miss."

"Will you tell her I'm out when she does?"

"Just that I'll miss you. Of course."

"Maybe in about a week." Carol handed her the demitasse with cream in it.

While Carol was pouring the coffee, Therese asked, "Have you decided how soon you're going away?"

Why? Therese could not put into words why it hurt her that Carol had. "It just seems strange you'd tell her before you said anything to me."

"Why?"

There it was, Therese thought, as casual as if she suggested their taking a walk together. "You mentioned it to Abby, didn't you?"

"Good night," Carol said.

"I didn't tell her. I only said I might ask you." Carol came over to her and put her hands on Therese's shoulders. "Look, there's no reason for you to feel like this about Abby -- unless Abby said a lot else to you at lunch that you didn't tell me."

"No," Therese said. No, but it was the undercurrents, it was worse. She felt Carol's hands leave her shoulders.

"Abby's a very old friend of mine," Carol said. "I talk over everything with her."

Carol had turned away from her, and suddenly it meant nothing, because of the way Carol asked her, as if she didn't really care one way or the other if she went. "Thanks -- I don't think I can afford it just now."

"Yes," Therese said.

"Well, do you think you'd like to go?"

As if she wouldn't turn down a job on a ballet set to go away with Carol -- to go with her through country she had never seen before, over rivers and mountains, not knowing where they would be when night came.

"You wouldn't need much money. We'd go in the car. But if you have a job offered you right away, that's different."

Therese felt Carol had been reading all her thoughts. "It's a picture of Rindy," Therese said.

Carol knew that, and knew she would have to refuse if Carol asked her in this way. Therese felt suddenly sure that Carol taunted her, and she resented it with the bitter resentment of a betrayal. And the resentment resolved itself into a decision never to see Carol again. She glanced at Carol, who was waiting for her answer, with that defiance only half masked by an air of indifference, an expression that Therese knew would not change at all if she should give a negative answer. Therese got up and went to the box on the end table for a cigarette. There was nothing in the box but some phonograph needles and a photograph.

"What is it?" Carol asked, watching her.

"Of Rindy? Let's see it."

Therese watched Carol's face as she looked at the picture of the little girl with the white-blond hair and the serious face, with the taped white bandage on her knee. In the picture, Harge was standing in a rowboat, and Rindy was stepping from a dock into his arms.

"It's not a very good picture," Carol said, but her face had changed, grown softer. "That's about three years old. Would you like a cigarette? There's some over here. Rindy's going to stay with Harge for the next three months."

Therese had supposed that from the conversation in the kitchen that morning with Abby. "Is that in New Jersey, too?"

"Yes. Harge's family lives in New Jersey. They've a big house." Carol waited. "The divorce will come through in a month, I think, and after March, I'll have Rindy the rest of the year."

"A few times. Probably not much."

"Oh. But you'll see her again before March, won't you?"

"Yes, but she's very fond of her father, too."

"Fonder than she is of you?"

Therese looked at Carol's hand holding the photograph, beside her on the glider, carelessly. "Won't she miss you?"

"No. Not really. But he's bought her a goat to play with now. He takes her to school on his way to work, and he picks her up at four. Neglects his business for her -- and what more can you ask of a man?"

Carol's voice was calm, as it might have been if she talked to Abby, Therese thought. Carol had never said so much to her before. "But the lawyer understood?"

"You didn't see her Christmas, did you?" Therese said.

Therese stood there, crushing the unlighted cigarette in her fingers.

"No. Because of something that happened in the lawyer's office. That was the afternoon Harge's lawyer wanted to see us both, and Harge had brought Rindy, too. Rindy said she wanted to go to Harge's house for Christmas. Rindy didn't know I wasn't going to be there this year. They have a big tree that grows on the lawn and they always decorate it, so Rindy was set on it. Anyway, it made quite an impression on the lawyer, you know, the child asking to go home for Christmas with her father. And naturally I didn't want to tell Rindy then I wasn't going, or she'd have been disappointed. I couldn't have said it anyway, in front of the lawyer. Harge's machinations are enough."

Carol shrugged. "It's Harge's lawyer, not mine. So I agreed to the three-month arrangement now, because I don't want her to be tossed back and forth. If I'm to have her nine months and Harge three -- it might as well start now."

"Sometimes."

"Not very often. The family isn't too cordial. I talk to Rindy every day on the telephone. Sometimes she calls me."

Carol leaned against the window sill. "And now Rindy's got television every day. Hopalong Cassidy. How she'd love to go out West. That's the last doll I'll ever buy for her, Therese. I only got it because she said she wanted one, but she's outgrown them."

"They never cared for me. They've been complaining ever since Harge met me at some deb party. They're very good at criticizing. I sometimes wonder just who would pass with them."

"For having a furniture shop, for instance. But that didn't last a year. Then for not playing bridge, or not liking to. They pick out the funny things, the most superficial things."

"What do they criticize you for?"

"They sound horrid."

Carol waited so long to answer, Therese thought she was not going to.

"They're not horrid. One's just supposed to conform. I know what they'd like, they'd like a blank they could fill in. A person already filled in disturbs them terribly. Shall we play some music? Don't you ever like the radio?"

"You won't even visit her?"

"Why isn't the family cordial?"

"I don't see how he could be so much in love with you."

"You know that," Carol said.

"Yes."

Behind Carol, an airport searchlight made a pale sweep in the night, and disappeared. Carol's voice seemed to linger in the darkness. In its richer, happier tone, Therese could hear the depths within her where she loved Rindy, deeper than she would probably ever love anyone else. "Harge doesn't make it easy for you to see her, does he?"

"I've never done anything to embarrass him socially, and that's all he cares about really. There's a certain woman at the club I wish he'd married. Her life is entirely filled with giving exquisite little dinner parties and being carried out of the best bars feet first -- She's made her husband's advertising business a great success, so he smiles on her little faults. Harge wouldn't smile, but he'd have some definite reason for complaint. I think he picked me out like a rug for his living room, and he made a bad mistake. I doubt if he's capable of loving anyone, really. What he has is a kind of acquisitiveness, which isn't much separate from his ambition. It's getting to be a disease, isn't it, not being able to love?" She looked at Therese. "Maybe it's the times. If one wanted to, one could make out a case for racial suicide. Man trying to catch up with his own destructive machines."

"It's not love. It's a compulsion. I think he wants to control me. I suppose if I were a lot wilder but never had an opinion on anything except his opinion -- Can you follow all this?"

"You're the young generation," Carol said. "And what have you got to say?" She sat down on the glider.

Therese said nothing. It reminded her of a thousand conversations with Richard, Richard mingling war and big business and Congressional witch-hunts and finally certain people he knew into one grand enemy, whose only collective label was hate. Now Carol, too. It shook Therese in the profoundest part of her where no words were, no easy words like death or dying or killing. Those words were somehow future, and this was present. An inarticulate anxiety, a desire to know, know anything, for certain, had jammed itself in her throat so for a moment she felt she could hardly breathe. Do you think, do you think, it began. Do you think both of us will die violently someday, be suddenly shut off? But even that question wasn't definite enough. Perhaps it was a statement after all: I don't want to die yet without knowing you. Do you feel the same way, Carol? She could have uttered the last question, but she could not have said all that went before it.

"You're about as weak as this match." Carol held it burning for a moment after she lighted her cigarette. "But given the right conditions, you could burn a house down, couldn't you?"

"I suppose the first thing is not to be afraid." Therese turned and saw Carol's smile. "You're smiling because you think I am afraid, I suppose."

"But you're even afraid to take a little trip with me. You're afraid because you think you haven't got enough money."

"That's not it."

"You've got some very strange values, Therese. I asked you to go with me, because it would give me pleasure to have you. I should think it'd be good for you, too, and good for your work. But you've got to spoil it by a silly pride about money. Like that handbag you gave me. Out of all proportion. Why don't you take it back, if you need the money? I don't need the handbag. It gave you pleasure to give it to me, I suppose. It's the same thing, you see. Only I make sense and you don't." Carol walked by her and turned to her again, poised with one foot forward and her head up, the short blond hair as unobtrusive as a statue's hair. "Well, do you think it's funny?"

"Or a city."

She went out and across the hall, to the door of Carol's room. "What are you doing?"

"Just that," Therese said. "I've got the money to go. I'll go."

Carol stared at her. Therese saw the sullenness leave her face, and then Carol began to smile, too, with surprise, a little incredulously.

Carol would have walked out exactly the same way, she thought, if she had said no, she wouldn't go. She picked up her half-finished demitasse, then set it down again.

"Well, all right," Carol said. "I'm delighted."

Therese watched her go, her hands in her pockets and her moccasins making light slow clicks on the floor.

Therese looked at the empty doorway.

Doesn't she really know, Therese thought. "You do seem to care whether I go or not," Therese said simply.

"Of course I care. I asked you, didn't I?" Carol said, still smiling, but with a twist of her toe, she turned her back on Therese and walked toward the green room.

Therese was smiling. "I don't care about the money," she said quietly.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm delighted."

"What brought this happy change about?"

"Fine." A smile spread over her face.

She stood up and slipped a piece of paper into her pocket. She was smiling now, really smiling in her eyes, like the moment in the kitchen with Abby. "Something," Carol said. "Let's have some music."

"Why don't you get ready for bed first? It's late, do you know that?"

"Is that a compliment?"

"It always gets late with you."

Carol was bending over her dressing table, writing. "What am I doing?"

Carol crossed the hall to the green room. "You get ready. You've got circles under your eyes."

Therese undressed quickly in the room with the twin beds. The phonograph in the other room played "Embraceable You." Then the telephone rang.

"I don't feel like going to bed tonight."

Therese opened the top drawer of the bureau. It was empty except for a couple of men's handkerchiefs, an old clothesbrush, and a key. And a few papers in the corner. Therese picked up a card covered in isinglass. It was an old driver's license that belonged to Harge. Hargess Foster Aird. Age: 37. Height: 5'8". Weight: 168. Hair: blond. Eyes: blue. She knew all that. A 1950 Oldsmobile. Color: dark blue. Therese put it back and closed the drawer. She went to the door and listened.

Abby, Therese knew. She blew her smoke out and snuffed at the slightly sweet smelling wisps of it, remembering the first cigarette she had ever smoked, a Philip Morris, on the roof of a dormitory at the Home, four of them passing it around.

Therese went to the bed table and got a cigarette from the box there. A Philip Morris. Carol had put them there, not the maid, Therese knew, because Carol remembered that she liked them. Naked now, Therese stood listening to the music It was a song she didn't know.

"I am sorry, Tessie, but I did get stuck after all," Carol was saying regretfully, but her voice was happy. "Is it a good party?… Well, I'm not dressed and I'm tired."

Was Carol on the telephone again?

… it's easy to live… when you're in love…

"Well, I don't like it," she heard Carol say, half angry, half joking, "one damn bit."

"How do I know what kind of people they are?… Oh-ho! Is that so?"

"Yes, we're going," Carol said emphatically. "Well, I am. Don't I sound it?"

… For you… maybe I'm a fool but it's fun… People say you rule me with one… wave of your hand… darling, it's grand o o o they just don't understand…

"She wants to talk to you again," Therese said.

"Is that news to you?"

Therese closed the door. The phonograph had dropped another record.

Therese had ducked behind the bathroom door because she was naked. "Why?"

Abby sounded silly, as if she wanted to talk all night. She wished Therese a pleasant trip, and told her about the roads in the corn belt, how bad they could be in winter.

"Cut it, cut it!" Carol called down.

Carol said, "That's nobody's business but mine, is it?… Nonsense!" and Therese smiled at her vehemence.

"Will you forgive me if I was rude today?" Abby said for the second time. "I like you O. K., Therese."

Therese told her, and got away.

"Hello," Abby said. "I hear you're going."

"Come along," Carol said, and Therese put on a robe and went.

"Why don't you come say hello to Abby?" Carol said.

It was a good song. Therese closed her eyes and leaned on the half-open door, listening. Behind the voice was a slow piano that rippled all over, the keyboard. And a lazy trumpet.

"Tell Abigail I'm in the tub."

In the light of the lamp, Therese could see all the freckles on half of Carol's face. Carol's white looking eyebrow bent like a wing around the curve of her forehead. Therese felt ecstatically happy all at once.

"What do you mean, what's the matter with her?" Carol poured a brown colored liquor into the two glasses. "I think she's had a couple tonight."

"I know. But why did she want to have lunch with me?"

"Well -- I guess a lot of reasons. Try some of this stuff."

"It just seems vague," Therese said.

"The whole lunch."

"What does?"

"Why do you drink it if you don't like it?"

Therese sipped it, sweet and dark brown, like coffee, with the sting of alcohol. "Tastes good."

It was the first time Carol had called her darling. "What things?" Therese asked. She wanted an answer, a definite answer.

Carol gave her a glass. "Some things are always vague, darling."

"You would think so."

Carol sighed. "A lot of things. The most important things. Taste your drink."

"What's the matter with Abby?" Therese asked.

"Because it's different. This is to our trip, so it's got to be something different." Carol grimaced and drank the rest of her glass.

Carol had brought a bottle and two little glasses into the room.

"What's that song that was playing before, the one with just the voice and the piano?"

"It's time you saw America."

"I'd like to hear it again."

"'Easy Living,'" Carol said. "That's an old one."

"I'd like you to get to bed. I'll play it again."

"Hum it."

Carol went into the green room, and stayed there while it played. Therese stood by the door of her room, listening, smiling.

That was her song. That was everything she felt about Carol. She went in the bathroom before it was over, and turned the water on in the tub, got in and let the greenish looking water tumble about her feet.

She whistled part of it, and Carol smiled.

"Hey!" Carol called. "Have you ever been to Wyoming?"

… I'll never regret… the years I'm giving… They're easy to give, when you're in love… I'm happy to do whatever I do for you…

"No."

Therese lifted the dripping rag and pressed it against her knee. The water was so high now, her breasts looked like flat things floating on the surface. She studied them, trying to decide what they looked like besides what they were.

"Well, some people do."

"A lot of things."

"Real estate investment."

Carol smiled. "Not yours."

Therese opened the medicine cabinet. She saw the razor. The medicine cabinet was still full of men's things, after-shaving lotions and lather brushes. "Was this his room?" she asked as she came out of the bathroom. "Which bed did he sleep in?"

"Can I have some more of this?" Therese asked, looking at the liqueur bottle.

"I won't."

"What's he like? Does he like to go to the theater? Does he like people?"

"I mean, what's his business?"

"He likes a little group of people who play golf," Carol said with finality. Then in a louder voice, "And what else? He's very, very meticulous about everything. But he forgot his best razor. It's in the medicine cabinet and you can see it if you want to and you probably do. I've got to mail it to him, I suppose."

"Tell me more about Harge," she said as she dried herself. "What does he do?"

"Don't go to sleep in there," Carol called in a preoccupied voice, and Therese knew she was sitting on the bed, looking at a map.

"Why not?" Anything seemed possible tonight.

"Of course."

"Can I kiss you good night?"

Carol was folding the road map, pursing her lips as if she would whistle, waiting. "No," she said.

It was a check. Therese read the sum, two hundred dollars, made out to her. "What's this for?"

"But I don't need it," Therese said. "Thanks. I don't care if I spend the union money."

"For the trip. I don't want you to spend the money you'll need for that union membership thing." Carol took a cigarette. "You won't need all of that, I just want you to have it."

"But I won't take it." She sounded curt, so she smiled a little as she put the check down on the table top by the liqueur bottle. But she had thumped the check down, too. She wished she could explain it to Carol. It didn't matter at all, the money, but since it did give Carol pleasure, she hated not to take it. "I don't like the idea," Therese said. "Think of something else." She looked at Carol. Carol was watching her, was not going to argue with her, Therese was glad to see.

"I'll give you this instead." Carol pulled her hand out of her pocket.

"No back talk," Carol interrupted her. "It gives me pleasure, remember?"

"All right," Carol said. "I'll think. Good night." Carol had stopped by the door.

She turned to the table and saw the check again. But it was for Carol to tear up. She slid it under the edge of the dark-blue linen table runner, out of sight.

"To give me pleasure?" Carol asked.

It was a funny way of saying good night, Therese thought, on such an important night. "Good night," Therese answered.

Therese's smile broadened. "Yes," she said, and picked up the little glass.