The wind shook the tent again, And I shook with it.

The temperature was dropping. I could feel it through the down bag, through my jacket. I was fully dressed, my hiking boots still laced into place. It didn't make any difference. How could it be so cold? How could it keep getting colder? It had to bottom out sometime, didn't it?

"W-w-w-w-w-what t-t-t-t-time is it?" I forced the words through my rattling teeth.

"Two," Edward answered.

Edward sat as far from me as possible in the cramped space, afraid to even breathe on me when I was already so cold. It was too dark to see his face, but his voice was wild with worry, indecision, and frustration.

"Maybe…"

"No, I'm f-f-f-f-f-fine, r-r-r-really. I don't w-w-w-want to g-go outside."

He'd tried to talk me into making a run for it a dozen times already, but I was terrified of leaving my shelter. If it was this cold in here, protected from the raging wind, I could imagine how bad it would be if we were running through it.

And it would waste all our efforts this afternoon. Would we have enough time to reset ourselves when the storm was over? What if it didn't end? It made no sense to move now. I could shiver my way through one night.

"What can I do?" he almost begged.

I was worried that the trail I had laid would be lost, but he promised that it would still be plain to the coming monsters.

"He's just worried about you," Edward translated. "He's fine. His body is equipped to deal with this."

Out in the snow, Jacob whined unhappily.

"G-g-g-get out of h-h-h-ere," I ordered, again.

Jacob whimpered, a high-pitched, grating sound of complaint.

I just shook my head.

"I'm ok-k-k-k-k-k-kay," I protested. Judging from Edward's groan and the muted growl outside the tent, I hadn't convinced anyone. The wind rocked the tent roughly, and I shuddered in harmony with it.

"H-h-h-h-h-h." I wanted to say that he should still leave, but I couldn't get it past my teeth. I nearly bit my tongue off trying. At least Jacob did seem to be well equipped for the snow, better even than the others in his pack with his thicker, longer, shaggy russet fur. I wondered why that was.

"What do you want me to do?" Edward growled, too anxious to bother with politeness anymore. "Carry her through that? I don't see you making yourself useful. Why don't you go fetch a space heater or something?"

A sudden howl ripped through the roar of the wind, and I covered my ears against the noise.

"Better than anything you've come up with," Jacob answered, his human voice startling me."Go fetch a space heater," he grumbled. "I'm not a St. Bernard."

I heard the sound of the zipper around the tent door pulling swiftly down.

Edward scowled. "That was hardly necessary," he muttered. "And that's the worst idea I've ever heard," he called more loudly.

"I don't like this," Edward hissed as Jake zipped the tent door shut. "Just give her the coat and get out."

Jacob slid through the smallest opening he could manage, while the arctic air flowed in around him, a few flecks of snow falling to the floor of the tent. I shivered so hard it was a convulsion.

I tried to ask what they were talking about, but all that came out of my mouth was, "W-w-w-w-w-w," as the shivering made me stutter uncontrollably.

My eyes were adjusted enough to see shapes -- Jacob was carrying the parka that had been hanging on a tree next to the tent.

Edward's hand was suddenly hard on his shoulder, restraining, snow white against the dark skin. Jacob's jaw clenched, his nostrils flaring, his body recoiling from the cold touch. The long muscles in his arms flexed automatically.

"J-J-J-J-Jake, you'll f-f-f-freez-z-z-ze," I tried to complain.

"The parka's for tomorrow -- she's too cold to warm it up by herself. It's frozen." He dropped it by the door. "You said she needed a space heater, and here I am." Jacob held his arms as wide as the tent allowed. As usual, when he'd been running around as a wolf, he'd only thrown on the bare essentials -- just a pair of sweats, no shirt, no shoes.

"Keep your hands off of her," Edward answered blackly.

"Not me," he said cheerfully. "I run at a toasty one-oh-eight point nine these days. I'll have you sweating in no time."

Edward snarled, but Jacob didn't even look at him. Instead, he crawled to my side and started unzipping my sleeping bag.

"Get your hand off of me," he growled through his teeth.

'D-d-d-don't f-f-f-f-fight," I pleaded. Another tremor rocked through me. It felt like my teeth were going to shatter, they were slamming together so hard.

"Try to relax," he suggested as another shiver rippled through me violently. "You'll be warm in a minute. Of course, you'd warm up faster if you took your clothes off."

'S-s-s-s-sorry," I stuttered.

"Scoot over, Bella," he said, zipping the sleeping bag open farther.

He crammed his body into the nonexistent space, forcing the zipper up behind himself.

And then I couldn't object -- I didn't want to anymore. He was so warm. His arms constricted around me, holding me snugly against his bare chest. The heat was irresistible, like air after being underwater for too long. He cringed when I pressed my icy fingers eagerly against his skin.

Edward hesitated, then his hand fell away and he slid back to his position in the corner.

"I'm sure she'll thank you for this when her toes turn black and drop off," Jacob snapped.

His voice was flat and frightening. "Watch yourself."

"Jeez, you're freezing, Bella," he complained.

I stared at him in outrage. No wonder Edward was reacting this way.

Jacob chuckled.

"N-n-n-n-n," I tried to protest.

"Don't be stupid," he said, exasperated. "Don't you like having ten toes?"

"Your lips are still blue," he mused. "Want me to warm those up for you, too? You only have to ask."

"C-c-cut it out, Jake," I said angrily, though my body refused to even try to pull away from him. "N-n-n-nobody really n-n-n-n-needs all ten t-t-t-toes."

Edward sighed heavily.

"True," Edward agreed.

"Of course I am." Edward's voice was velvet again, under control, a musical murmur in the darkness. "You don't have the faintest idea how much I wish I could do what you're doing for her, mongrel."

"There," Jacob said, pleased. "Feeling better?"

"Behave yourself," I muttered, pressing my face against his shoulder. He flinched again when my cold skin touched his, and I smiled with slightly vindictive satisfaction.

"Those are the breaks," Jacob said lightly, but then his tone soured. "At least you know she wishes it was you."

I was finally able to speak clearly. "Yes."

Edward growled sharply.

The shuddering slowed, became bearable while they wrangled.

"That's just a simple fact," Jacob defended himself. "Survival one-oh-one."

"Don't worry about the bloodsucker," Jacob suggested, and his tone was smug. "He's just jealous."

It was already warm and snug inside the sleeping bag. Jacob's body heat seemed to radiate from every side -- maybe because there was so much of him. I kicked my boots off, and pushed my toes against his legs. He jumped slightly, and then leaned his head down to press his hot cheek against my numb ear.

I noticed that Jacob's skin had a woodsy, musky scent -- it fit the setting, here in the middle of the forest. It was nice. I wondered if the Cullens and the Quileutes weren't just playing up that whole odor issue because of their prejudices. Everyone smelled fine to me.

The storm howled like an animal attacking the tent, but it didn't worry me now. Jacob was out of the cold, and so was I. Plus, I was simply too exhausted to worry about anything -- tired from just staying awake so late, and aching from the muscle spasms. My body relaxed slowly as I thawed, piece by frozen piece, and then turned limp.

"Jake?" I mumbled sleepily. "Can I ask you something? I'm not trying to be a jerk or anything, I'm honestly curious." They were the same words he'd used in my kitchen… how long ago was it now?

He didn't answer right away this time, and Edward laughed under his breath.

"Sure," he chuckled, remembering.

"Because my hair is longer," he said, amused -- my question hadn't offended him, at least. He shook his head so that his unkempt hair -- grown out to his chin now -- tickled my cheek.

Jacob made an annoyed sound. "Oh, he'll tell you anyway, so I might as well… I was growing my hair out because… it seemed like you liked it better long."

"Why are you so much furrier than your friends? You don't have to answer if I'm being rude."

I didn't know the rules for etiquette as they applied to werewolf culture.

"Oh." I was surprised, but it made sense. So that was why they'd all cropped their hair in the beginning, when they joined the pack. "Then why don't you cut it? Do you like to be shaggy?"

"Sorry," I said, pausing to yawn. "I didn't mean to pry. You don't have to tell me."

"Oh." I felt awkward. "I, er, like it both ways, Jake. You don't need to be… inconvenienced."

He shrugged. "Turns out it was very convenient tonight, so don't worry about it."

"That's right, honey, go to sleep," Jacob whispered.

"Seth is here," Edward muttered to Jacob, and I suddenly understood the point of the howling.

I sighed, content, already half-unconscious.

I didn't have anything else to say. As the silence lengthened, my eyelids drooped and shut, and my breathing grew slower, more even.

"Perfect. Now you can keep an eye on everything else, while I take care of your girlfriend for you."

Edward didn't answer, but I groaned groggily. "Stop it," I muttered.

It was quiet then, inside at least. Outside, the wind shrieked insanely through the trees. The shimmying of the tent made it hard to sleep. The poles would suddenly jerk and quiver, pulling me back from the edge of unconsciousness each time I was close to slipping under. I felt so bad for the wolf, the boy that was stuck outside in the snow.

My mind wandered as I waited for sleep to find me. This warm little space made me think of the early days with Jacob, and I remembered how it used to be when he was my replacement sun, the warmth that made my empty life livable. It had been a while since I'd thought of Jake that way, but here he was, warming me again.

There was a brief moment of silence.

"I wish I could. You have no idea how loud your little fantasies are. It's like you're shouting them at me."

"Go to sleep, Jacob," Edward murmured. "You're starting to get on my nerves."

Edward chuckled. "In your dreams."

"I'll try to keep it down," Jacob whispered sarcastically.

"What?" Jacob whispered back, his tone surprised.

"Please!" Edward hissed. "Do you mind!"

"I figured it was like that," Jacob whispered smugly. "Sort of evens the playing field up a little, doesn't it?"

"Do you think you could attempt to control your thoughts?" Edward's low whisper was furious.

"Yes," Edward answered an unspoken thought in a murmur so low I barely made it out. "I'm jealous of that, too."

"You know, she could still change her mind," Jacob taunted him. "Considering all the things I could do with her that you can't. At least, not without killing her, that is."

"I think I will. I'm really very comfortable."

"No one said you had to listen," Jacob muttered, defiant, yet still embarrassed. "Get out of my head."

"Well, you see inside my head -- let me see inside yours tonight, it's only fair," Jacob said.

"The jealousy… it has to be eating at you. You can't be as sure of yourself as you seem. Unless you have no emotions at all."

"Do you think about it all the time?" Jacob whispered. "Does it make it hard to concentrate when she's not with you?"

"Your head is full of questions. Which one do you want me to answer?"

"Of course it is," Edward agreed, no longer amused. "Right now it's so bad that I can barely control my voice. Of course, it's even worse when she's away from me, with you, and I can't see her."

Edward didn't answer.

I was too far gone to ask them to stop talking about me like I wasn't there. The conversation had taken on a dreamlike quality to me, and I wasn't sure I was really awake.

"You can always ask and see." Edward's tone made me wonder if I was missing out on a joke.

"Maybe I would," Edward said after a moment, answering a question I hadn't heard.

"But would you be honest?"

"Yes and no," Edward said; he seemed determined to answer honestly. "My mind doesn't work quite the same as yours. I can think of many more things at one time. Of course, that means that I'm always able to think of you, always able to wonder if that's where her mind is, when she's quiet and thoughtful."

Jacob was defiant. "She's in love with me, too, you know."

"Thank you," Edward whispered. "Odd as this might sound, I suppose I'm glad you're here, Jacob."

The wind ripped around the tent, shaking it like an earthquake. Jacob's arms tightened around me protectively.

Jacob sighed. "But she doesn't know it."

Edward didn't answer.

"Does that bother you? Do you wish you could see what she's thinking, too?"

They were both still for a minute.

"Yes, I would guess that she thinks about you often," Edward murmured in response to Jacob's thoughts. "More often than I like. She worries that you're unhappy. Not that you don't know that. Not that you don't use that."

"I can't tell you if you're right."

"Yes… and no, again. She likes it better this way, and, though it sometimes drives me insane, I'd rather she was happy."

"That helps," Edward agreed in a mild tone.

"I have to use whatever I can," Jacob muttered. "I'm not working with your advantages -- advantages like her knowing she's in love with you."

"You mean, 'as much as I'd love to kill you, I'm glad she's warm,' right?"

"I should. I've had a hundred years to gain it. A hundred years of waiting for her."

Jacob's whisper was suddenly smug. "I knew you were just as crazy jealous as I am."

"It's an uncomfortable truce, isn't it?"

"You have more patience than I do."

"I'm not such a fool as to wear it on my sleeve like you do. It doesn't help your case, you know."

"When I saw how much it was hurting her to make her choose. It's not usually this difficult to control. I can smother the… less civilized feelings I may have for you fairly easily most of the time. Sometimes I think she sees through me, but I can't be sure."

Edward didn't answer right away. "That was a part of it," he finally admitted. "But only a small part. We all have our moments of doubt. Mostly I was worried that she'd hurt herself trying to sneak away to see you. After I'd accepted that she was more or less safe with you -- as safe as Bella ever is -- it seemed best to stop driving her to extremes."

"So… at what point did you decide to play the very patient good guy?"

"I think you were just worried that if you really forced her to choose, she might not choose you."

"What is it like? Losing her?" Jacob asked after a quiet moment, and there was no hint of humor in his suddenly hoarse voice. "When you thought that you'd lost her forever? How did you… cope?"

"Sometimes it's an intriguing idea."

There was a long pause.

"I know." It sounded like Edward was smiling.

Jacob chuckled quietly. "Would you try to kill me?" Sarcastic again, as if doubting Edward's ability to do it.

Jacob sighed. "I'd tell her all of this, but she'd never believe me."

"What would you do if she changed her mind?" Jacob asked.

"I don't know that either."

"I don't know the future," Edward said, his voice suddenly unsure.

"Why not?" Jacob's tone was still jeering.

"You think you know everything," Jacob muttered.

"Do you really think I would hurt her that way?"

Jacob hesitated for a second, and then sighed. "Yeah, you're right. I know that's right. But sometimes…"

"No."

Jacob pressed his face into the sleeping bag to muffle his laugher. "Exactly," he eventually agreed.

What a strange dream this was. I wondered if it was the relentless wind that made me imagine all the whispering. Only the wind was screaming rather than whispering…

Jacob waited.

"But she wasn't happy. And I would have stayed. That's how she convinced me to stay with her tomorrow, of course. You were wondering about that before, what could possibly motivate me… what she was feeling so needlessly guilty about. She reminded me of what it did to her when I left -- what it still does to her when I leave. She feels horrible about bringing that up, but she's right. I'll never be able to make up for that, but I'll never stop trying anyway."

"There were two different times that I thought that." Edward spoke each word just a little slower than normal. "The first time, when I thought I could leave her… that was… almost bearable. Because I thought she would forget me and it would be like I hadn't touched her life. For over six months I was able to stay away, to keep my promise that I wouldn't interfere again. It was getting close -- I was fighting but I knew I wasn't going to win; I would have come back… just to check on her. That's what I would have told myself, anyway. And if I'd found her reasonably happy… I like to think that I could have gone away again.

"That's very difficult for me to talk about."

"Yes." Edward answered a different question. "It will probably feel like that to you, won't it? The way you perceive us, you might not be able to see her as Bella anymore. But that's who she'll be."

"That's not what I asked."

Jacob didn't respond for a moment, listening to the storm or digesting what he'd heard, I didn't know which.

"And the other time -- when you thought she was dead?" Jacob whispered roughly.

Edward spoke slowly. "Jacob, from the second that I realized that I loved her, I knew there were only four possibilities. The first alternative, the best one for Bella, would be if she didn't feel as strongly for me -- if she got over me and moved on. I would accept that, though it would never change the way I felt. You think of me as a… living stone -- hard and cold. That's true. We are set the way we are, and it is very rare for us to experience a real change. When that happens, as when Bella entered my life, it is a permanent change. There's no going back…

Edward's voice came back fast and hard. "I can't tell you how it felt. There aren't words."

Jacob's arms flexed around me.

"But you left because you didn't want to make her a bloodsucker. You want her to be human."

"What do I have left but the fourth option? It's what she wants -- at least, she thinks she does. I've been trying to delay her, to give her time to find a reason to change her mind, but she's very… stubborn. You know that. I'll be lucky to stretch this out a few more months. She has a horror of getting older, and her birthday is in September…"

"So I chose option three. Which turned out to be the worst mistake of my very long life, as you know. I chose to take myself out of her world, hoping to force her into the first alternative. It didn't work, and it very nearly killed us both.

"The second alternative, the one I'd originally chosen, was to stay with her throughout her human life. It wasn't a good option for her, to waste her life with someone who couldn't be human with her, but it was the alternative I could most easily face. Knowing all along that, when she died, I would find a way to die, too. Sixty years, seventy years -- it would seem like a very, very short time to me… But then it proved much too dangerous for her to live in such close proximity with my world. It seemed like everything that could go wrong did. Or hung over us… waiting to go wrong. I was terrified that I wouldn't get those sixty years if I stayed near her while she was human.

Edward didn't respond.

"I like option one," Jacob muttered.

Edward chuckled. "Maybe it would have worked. It was a well thought-out plan."

"You know exactly how much I hate to accept this," Jacob whispered slowly, "but I can see that you do love her… in your way. I can't argue with that anymore.

"You love her enough that you have to see the advantages of that plan. She thinks you're very unselfish… are you really? Can you consider the idea that I might be better for her than you are?"

"Yeah." Jake sighed. "But…" suddenly he was whispering so fast the words got tangled, "give me a year -- Edward. I really think I could make her happy. She's stubborn, no one knows that better than I do, but she's capable of healing. She would have healed before. And she could be human, with Charlie and Renee, and she could grow up, and have kids and… be Bella.

"Given that, I don't think you should give up on the first alternative, not yet. I think there's a very good chance that she would be okay. After time. You know, if she hadn't jumped off a cliff in March… and if you'd waited another six months to check on her… Well, you might have found her reasonably happy. I had a game plan."

"I even asked Alice if she could see that -- see if Bella would be better off with you. She couldn't, of course. She can't see you, and then Bella's sure of her course, for now.

"And if she were to decide that she wanted me?" Jacob challenged. "Okay, it's a long shot, I'll give you that."

"I have considered it," Edward answered quietly. "In some ways, you would be better suited for her than another human. Bella takes some looking after, and you're strong enough that you could protect her from herself, and from everything that conspires against her. You have done that already, and I'll owe you for that for as long as I live -- forever -- whichever comes first…

"In the sense that I'd never show her how hard it was for me, yes. But I would keep watch. You see, Jacob, you might leave her someday. Like Sam and Emily, you wouldn't have a choice. I would always be waiting in the wings, hoping for that to happen."

"But I'm not stupid enough to make the same mistake I made before, Jacob. I won't try to force her into that first option again. As long as she wants me, I'm here."

"I would let her go."

"Just like that?"

"Of course," Edward seethed. "Of course! I rather wish your elders had kept that story to themselves, Jacob."

"Maybe… if you weren't a disgusting vampire who was planning to suck out the life of the girl I love… well, no, not even then."

"What?" Jacob demanded again.

"What about it?"

"As I said, I'm feeling oddly grateful for your presence in her life tonight. It was the least I could do… You know, Jacob, if it weren't for the fact that we're natural enemies and that you're also trying to steal away the reason for my existence, I might actually like you."

Jacob snorted quietly. "Well, you've been much more honest than I had any right to expect… Edward. Thanks for letting me in your head."

Edward chuckled.

"Can I ask you something?" Edward said after a moment.

"I can only hear if you think of it. It's just a story that Bella seemed reluctant to tell me about the other day. Something about a third wife…"

Edward didn't answer, listening to the story in Jacob's head. I heard his low hiss in the darkness.

"Why would you have to ask?"

"I really couldn't care less about that part. Can't you guess which character Bella would identify with?"

"Neither side meant any harm," Edward whispered, peace-making now.

"You don't like the leeches being painted as the bad guys?" Jacob mocked. "You know, they are. Then and now."

"You know, your military brother gave her the idea just as much as the story did."

"She wants to be there in the clearing. To do what little she can, as she puts it." He sighed. "That was the secondary reason for my staying with her tomorrow. She's quite inventive when she wants something."

"First light," they whispered together, and then laughed quietly.

"Sleep well, Jacob," Edward murmured. "Enjoy the moment."

It took Jacob a minute. "Oh. Ugh. The third wife. Okay, I see your point."

"And when does this little truce end?" Jacob asked. "First light? Or do we wait until after the fight?"

There was a pause as they both considered.

It was quiet again, and the tent held still for a few minutes. The wind seemed to have decided that it wasn't going to flatten us after all, and was giving up the fight.

Edward groaned softly. "I didn't mean that quite so literally."

"Sorry," Jacob whispered. "You could leave, you know -- give us a little privacy."

"Would you like me to help you sleep, Jacob?" Edward offered.

"You could try," Jacob said, unconcerned. "It would be interesting to see who walked away, wouldn't it?"

Jacob whispered a laugh. "I'd rather not move just now, if you don't mind."

"Don't tempt me too far, wolf. My patience isn't that perfect."

Edward started humming to himself, louder than usual -- trying to drown out Jacob's thoughts, I assumed. But it was my lullaby he hummed, and, despite my growing discomfort with this whispered dream, I sank deeper into unconsciousness… into other dreams that made better sense…