When Park got on the bus, he set the comics and Smiths tape on the seat next to him, so they'd just be waiting for her. So he wouldn't have to say anything.

She stopped at their seat and looked down at the pile of stuff he'd left for her. (Where were her schoolbooks? He wondered) Then she picked everything up, careful as ever, and sat down.

When she got on the bus a few minutes later, Park could tell that something was wrong. She got on like she was lost and ended up there. She was wearing the same thing she'd worn yesterday -- which wasn't that weird, she was always wearing a different version of the same thing -- but today was different. Her neck and wrists were bare, and her hair was a mess -- a pile, an all-over glob, of red curls.

Park wanted to look at her face, but he couldn't. He stared at her wrists instead. She picked up the cassette. He'd written "How Soon is Now and More" on the thin white sticker.

"Thank you…" she said. Now that was something he'd never heard her say before. "But I can't."

She held it out to him.

# Park #

"I don't want it," he said.

"No," she said, practically loud enough for other people to hear. "I mean, I can't. I don't have any way to listen to it. God, just take it back."

"No," she said, "I mean, thank you, but… I can't." She tried to give him the tape, but he didn't take it. Why did she have to make every little thing so hard?

He didn't take it.

"It's for you, take it," he whispered. He looked up from her hands to her dropped chin.

She clenched her teeth and glared. She really must hate him.

Park frowned at Junior until he turned away. Then Park turned back to the girl…

He could hear the swampy guitar start and then the first line of the song. "I am the son… and the heir…"

He took it. She covered her face. The kid in the seat across from them, a twerpy senior who was actually named Junior, was watching.

He took his Walkman out of the pocket of his trench coat and popped out his Dead Kennedys tape. He slid the new tape in, pressed play, then -- carefully -- put the headphones over her hair. He was so careful, he didn't even touch her.

When they got to school, she took the headphones off and gave them back to him.

"Well," he said, looking down the hall, "now you've heard the Smiths."

Weird Asian kid.

Eleanor laughed.

Park stopped for a minute when they got to her locker. He didn't step close to her, but he stopped. She stopped, too.

She lifted her head a little but didn't look at him. She didn't move her hands away from her face.

And she…

She should have just taken the tape.

# Eleanor #

She didn't need to be telling everybody what she had and didn't have. She didn't need to be telling weird Asian kids anything.

They got off the bus together and stayed together. Which was weird. Usually, they broke away from each other as soon as they hit the sidewalk. That's what seemed weird now, Park thought; they walked the same way every day, her locker was just down the hall from his -- how had they managed to go their separate ways every morning?

She was pretty sure he was Asian. It was hard to tell. He had green eyes. And skin the color of sunshine through honey.

Eleanor had only known one Asian person in her life -- Paul, who was in her math class at her old school. Paul was Chinese. His parents had moved to Omaha to get away from the Chinese government. (Which seemed like an extreme choice. Like they'd looked at the globe and said, "Yup. That's as far away as possible.")

Paul was the one who'd taught Eleanor to say 'Asian' and not 'oriental.' "Oriental's for food," he'd said.

Eleanor stayed away from the n-word even in her head. It was bad enough that, thanks to Richie's influence, she went around mentally calling everyone she met a "motherfucker." (Irony.)

Maybe he was Filipino. Was that in Asia? Probably. Asia's out-of-control huge.

"Whatever, LaChoy Boy," she'd said back.

Eleanor couldn't figure out what an Asian person was doing in the Flats anyway. Everybody else here was seriously white. Like, white by choice. Eleanor had never even heard the n-word said out loud until she moved here, but the kids on her bus used it like it was the only way to indicate that somebody was black. Like there was no other word or phrase that would work.

Who she was apparently going to tell her whole life story to. Maybe on the way home, she'd tell him that she didn't have a phone or a washing machine or a toothbrush.

If Eleanor told Mrs Dunne everything -- about Richie, her mom, everything -- Eleanor didn't know what would happen.

There were three or four other Asian kids at their school. Cousins. One of them had written an essay about being a refugee from Laos.

And then there was Ol' Green Eyes.

That last thing, she was thinking about telling her counselor. Mrs Dunne had sat Eleanor down on her first day of school and given a little speech about how Eleanor could tell her anything. All through the speech, she kept squeezing the fattest part of Eleanor's arm.

But if she told Mrs Dunne about the toothbrush… maybe Mrs Dunne would just get her one. And then Eleanor could stop sneaking into the bathroom after lunch to rub her teeth with salt. (She'd seen that in a Western once. It probably didn't even work.)

The bell rang. 10:12.

Just two more periods until English. She wondered if he'd talk to her in class. Maybe that's what they did now.

"I am the sun…"

"And the air…"

Eleanor didn't notice at first how un-horrible everyone was being in gym. (Her head was still on the bus.) They were playing volleyball today, and once Tina said, "Your serve, bitch," but that was it, and that was practically jocular, all-things-Tina considered.

At first Eleanor thought the pads were actually bloody, but when she got closer she could see that it was just red magic marker. Somebody had written "Raghead" and "Big Red" on a few of the pads, but they were the expensive kind, so the ink was already starting to absorb.

When Eleanor got to the locker room, she realized why Tina had been so low-key; she was just waiting. Tina and her friends -- and the black girls, too, everybody wanted a piece of this -- were standing at the end of Eleanor's row, waiting for her to walk to her locker.

It was covered with Kotex pads. A whole box, it looked like.

She could still hear that voice in her head -- not his -- the singer's. From the Smiths. You could hear his accent, even when he was singing. He sounded like he was crying out.

Instead she walked past the girls, with her chin as high as she could manage, and methodically peeled the pads off her locker. There were even some inside, stuck to her clothes.

"Those girls are trifling," DeNice said. "They're so insignificant, God can hardly see them."

If Eleanor's clothes weren't in that locker, if she was wearing anything other than this gymsuit, she would have just walked away.

After everyone else walked away, two black girls stayed. They walked over to Eleanor and started pulling pads off the wall. "Ain't no thing," one of the girls whispered, crumpling a pad into a ball. Her name was DeNice, and she looked too young to be in the tenth grade. She was small, and she wore her hair in two braided pigtails.

Eleanor cried a little bit, she couldn't help it, but she kept her back to everybody so there wouldn't be a show. It was all over in a few minutes anyway because nobody wanted to be late to lunch. Most of the girls still had to change and redo their hair.

Eleanor shook her head, but didn't say anything.

If DeNice and Beebi hadn't been standing there, Eleanor might have kept some of the pads, the ones that didn't have any writing on them because, God, what a waste.

They threw the pads in the trash and pushed them under some wet paper towels so that nobody would find them.

She was late to lunch, then late to English. And if she didn't know already that she liked that stupid effing Asian kid, she knew it now.

"Hmm-hmm," the other girl agreed. Eleanor was pretty sure her name was Beebi. Beebi was what Eleanor's mom would call "a big girl." Much bigger than Eleanor. Beebi's gymsuit was even a different color than everybody else's, like they'd had to special order it for her. Which made Eleanor feel bad about feeling so bad about her own body… And which also made her wonder why she was the official fat girl in the class.

Because even after everything that had happened in the last forty-five minutes -- and everything that had happened in the last twenty-four hours -- all Eleanor could think about was seeing Park.

"I don't want to break it," she said.

The batteries started to die at 1:00 a. m., but Eleanor kept listening for another hour until the voices slowed to a stop.

"You can borrow it," he said quietly. "Listen to the rest of the tape."

"You're not going to break it."

"I don't care about the batteries."

When they got back on the bus, she took his Walkman without arguing. And without making him put it on for her. At the stop before hers, she handed it back.

"Really," she said. "You don't care."

"I don't want to use up the batteries."

"They're just batteries," he said.

She emptied the batteries and the tape from Park's Walkman, handed it back to him, then got off the bus without looking back.

# Park #

God, she was weird.

She looked up at him then, in the eye, maybe for the first time ever. Her hair looked even crazier than it had this morning -- more frizzy than curly, like she was working on a big red afro. But her eyes were dead serious, cold sober. Any cliché you've ever heard used to describe Clint Eastwood, those were Eleanor's eyes.

# Eleanor #