"I love you so much, too, Mommy."

"Is Via ashamed of me?" I said.

"Mommy, is Daisy with Grans now?"

"Go to sleep, sweet boy… I love you so much."

Mom scooted over toward Daddy's side of the bed, and I snuggled up next to her. She kissed my hair.

"No, honey, no. You know she's not. She's just adjusting to a new school. It's not easy."

"I'm sorry I called you a liar."

"Mommy?" I whispered. It was completely dark, so I couldn't see her open her eyes. "Mommy?"

"I think so."

"Shhh… There's nothing to be sorry about," she said, so quietly I could barely hear her. She was rubbing the side of her face against my face.

"I know you know."

"I know."

"Mommy…" I started crying. "I'm sorry about what I said."

"Can I sleep with you?"

"Is your hand okay?" I said. "Via told me Daisy bit you."

"It was only a nip," she whispered in my ear.

"Good night, honey," she said very softly.

"You okay, honey?" she said groggily.

I woke up later on and it was still dark. I got out of bed and walked into Mom and Dad's bedroom.

"Are they in heaven?"

"I don't know, sweetie." She sounded tired. "They just feel it. You don't need your eyes to love, right? You just feel it inside you. That's how it is in heaven. It's just love, and no one forgets who they love."

"Do people look the same when they get to heaven?"

"Yes."

"I don't know. I don't think so."

"Then how do people recognize each other?"

She kissed me again.

"Now go to sleep, honey. It's late. And I'm so tired."

But I couldn't go to sleep, even after I knew she had fallen asleep. I could hear Daddy sleeping, too, and I imagined I could hear Via sleeping down the hallway in her room. And I wondered if Daisy was sleeping in heaven right then. And if she was sleeping, was she dreaming about me? And I wondered how it would feel to be in heaven someday and not have my face matter anymore. Just like it never, ever mattered to Daisy.